Feeling lousy- I like this guy much more than I think he does- or he's just really busy and on the autistic spectrum or something - he prefers to text, not talk- he didn't return my call, though he did text - far and few in between- he's upset about a work thing- and so now I'm having a burger and garlic fries for dinner and finishing the castor oil later that I lied about throwing away a while ago in a post here.- yeah . . . and blasting classic Eminem on my youtube page(haven't listened to him in years)- ah, brings me back to HS- his first album came out when I was 14, I used to blast that ****, all alone in my bedroom and rap along with it- and people think I'm such a straight edge goody two shoe most of the time cause I stay so up beat- man, I used to be the biggest klepto- well- gotta go eat and have more rum and coke.



Update- so I threw the castor oil out for real this time- and didn't eat everything considering I already had guacamole and hotdogs with baked beans mid afternoon as well. I was remembering how nasty the castor oil was and how sick it made me and I'm not about to put myself threw that his again- and I'm not drinking anything else either- music therapy in stead. . ..