No, I can totally understand where you're coming from. Though for one, it might be a cultural thing- seeing as you said you're not from there originally. Second, I can totally can relate to wanting to be a ***** or an ***, I also think I'm too nice- and people have said as much. Not everyone appreciates people like us, and it's easy to get burned. I think it takes time to find true friends who will appreciate you for you. I'm still getting there myself.