Thanks catmom. But he isn't the violent type. He's the broody sulky ignoring type. The ones that resort to escapism.
Sometimes I just want a fight. Cuz a fight means atleast he is talking.
I am gregarious and passionate and full of life where he's more quiet sulky and appears grounded and stable. When I tell my support system we r parting ways they will all see me as the evil cow who cheated on this adorable man.

I have a huge capacity and internal strength to suffer which is why I'm struggling to decide.
Thanks nevertheless. Bless u!