For the first time in memory, I am not looking forward to Christmas at all. It feels like there will be too much family and too many questions and I just kinda feel done with it. I feel guilty for it the feeling since I rarely see most of my family. When I told my fiance how I was feeling, he kinda frowned since he loves the holidays. Of course he gets 3 weeks off for winter break since he teaches... This is a completely new feeling for me and its not because I'm depressed, in fact, my mood is pretty up. Maybe I just don't want all the stress to rain on my happy parade?