" embracing opportunities" is not because of your bipolar it's you. Yes possibly it helped you take chances, give you confidence that you could pull of projects that you wouldn't normally try but don't hand that over to bipolar. It's not fair to you. Most of what you wrote sounds like depression seeping in. It is strangely comfy and a bit maddening there. If your new to the diagnosis I'm assuming your new to the meds. Medicated depression and medicated mania feel weird, wrong and harder to label. Curl up, watch your netflix, hang out here, eat something, and Monday morning call your doctor. Nice to meet you.