If he says he is depressed then it is an awful health problem.....my partner has been hospitalised with the same (nervous breakdown) they are so consumed with their own feelings that they simply cannot think about other peoples even those that they have close loving relationships with.

He won't be in any position to make a clear decisions as to what he wants or feels, hence why he has gone away, and that is probably for the best at this moment in time, although as your love and care for him, I can totally understand and appreciate that you are probably feeling like you are the one going out of your mind with unanswered questions and thinking all kinds and are emotionally and physically and mentally wrecked.

My advice - get plenty of support yourself - counselling too and look after yourself.

Its difficult with the communication.....if you know he is getting texts then maybe just send an occasional text to let him know you care - nothing heavy and not too many - don't bombard him.

Don't put in about your feelings - he can't cope at the moment with his let alone yours aswell.

Its difficult if he won't answer calls or you don't know where he is staying - I feel for you if it is like at this - my situation was initially, then his parents told me he was with friends - and I assumed he was enjoying himself and out partying - later his parents told me that he ha been hospitalised and I felt terrible then - but you only have the information you are told at the time to go on.

If you are able to through friends or family, try and find out where he is - if only to know in your mind that he is in a safe place if you are worried about him.

Then its a dreadful (I am being honest with you) wait........your mind will go around and around in circles thinking all kinds trying desperately to understand his behaviour - your emotions will go from empathy, sympathy, for him , anger, frustration, resentment, loss, grieving - the whole spectrum, around and around. That's why I say its important to get support for you.

That's all whilst trying to hold down a job, day to day functioning and special occasions where it makes it very difficult like birthdays, Christmas, New Year.

You can do it though - just take it day-by-day.......go to friends and family for support and get some counselling - relate in the UK are great.

Get support on here to sending a big hug to you......you can and will do it x