She always wants to see them. I assumed that was normal, but maybe it isn't. Anyway, I thought she probably wanted to see that they were healing well. I find it strange or odd or something that medical personnel, nurses, doctors, physical therapists, are very freaked out by the sight of them. I was having a mammogram and a shoulder of my gown fell down, revealing a rather large and ugly keloid scar that was SI, and she rushed to cover it up again. I was thinking, well, jeez, here you are, looking at my boob, for goodness sake. How much more intimate can we get? No one ever seems to connect the overwhelming mental pain that accompanies the act of self injury.
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If happy little bluebirds fly above the clouds
why o why can't I?
Current Dx: PTSD, GAD, depression
Meds: Cymbalta 60, Klonopin 4/5 mg, BuSpar 30, Ambien pnr
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