How about taking responsibility for your actions? Break up with him and stay away from him.

Its really simple, when you stop complicating things unnecessarily.

At this point you don't even have to have a break-up talk, you've tried and failed. So just stop going to his house and stop communicating with him unless your job forces you to. Even then, communicate via email and keep it professional.

He only gets to you because you allow him to.

He's abusive in every way possible, you say you've made up your mind to leave, but you blame him for making you stay, when the truth is you choose to stay.

Your friends will support you, your parents are good people and they will be supportive and you also have this forum to support you.

How many posts and threads is this gonna take?

You know you deserve better.

So just end it already.

Do it quickly like a band aid, instead of this painfully slow method you're subjecting yourself to.