That post just brought tears to my eyes... In that its like you know exactly how I feel... My emotions are all over the place from worried, sad, down, lonely, angry, frustrated, hurt, understanding, empathy, it's so hard. They change throughout the day. also frommhopeless to having a glimmer of hope. Also in that you said I can do it. Thank you. Maybe it would be good to seek some support. Everyone else feels too close to the situation. I'm not eating half as much as I would. Haven't heard from them for the last several days. I finally gave in to how well I'd done and sent a message which I think has led them to feel even more guilty and even worse. I shouldn't have sent it. Sent it during the night when I probably wasn't as rational. I just want some communication. I was upset as we had something booked up and they cancelled it at the last minute. I then sent a text asking if they ok, then another saying goodnight and then one today saying please don't ignore the text. I need to back off. It's just hard. Tryingvto understand but also get my feelings across to. maybe i shouldnt. but wantvthem tonknow how much i care. Do you think I should send a text apologising and saying I didn't intend to make you feel guilty and that I understand and will back off. Or just leave it now? Its also led to me doubting where they really are etc when ive always trustedcthem completely. this had made them angry and accuse me of checking up on them. This is so hard. i love them with all my heart. Thank you again middie x