Med wise I am stable, mind wise I can talk myself into whatever, I go to a lot classes, put my faith in God, church, case manager and I have a great psych. Situation wise I have a ex who treats my kids horribly and is out to get me. I am a momma bear and a wreck 95% of the time. I just deal, I have no choice, for me no matter how bad it gets, I just cant imagine not seeing my kids walking down the aisle, meeting my grandchildren. My oldest just turned 16 this yr got her drivers permit, I couldn't stand the thought not seeing her at the sec of state taking pictures like a proud momma, espcially since her dad never even said way to go, and we share 50/50 custody. For me, they are the only thing I ever did right in my life, yes, it was hard, very hard!!!!! and its different experience for everyone, just make sure you have the proper support you need, its not the time, to try to do things on your own.