I felt inspired by your letter writing, here. Saturday night, I sent one off, myself. One of closure. I finally, after all this time, trying to find what it was in my heart, that I was trying to convey, what bothered me, what it was that I wanted to actually let go of, with a clear conscience, wrote this one off, then blocked all e-mail contact. Here it is...slightly edited but not by much...

4/21/13

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I'm at a point in my life, where I realize what it means to value a good man.

When I consider what it means to value another, I realize that what my needs are, I need to expect to give the same in return. I, personally, find private communication between a man and a woman, unrelated, non-professional, non-child related-albeit my kids father, coaches and teachers/administrators, inappropriate. It's just plain, inappropriate, it breaks down trust, leaves uncertainties in regards to fidelity/commitment/companionship, et al. Say, for instance, he and I were at a dinner soirée and I saw him go off into another, private location with another woman, I would feel hurt and betrayed, at best. Being a Christian woman, I wouldn't want to do the same to him.

I do find it appropriate in a public setting, to mingle amongst men and women, alike. It's the privatizing that is most concerning to me, having witnessed it played out by others, yourself included, throughout the years. It just goes against my moral belief system. And I am not going to compromise my morals. It had been one thing, you as divorcing and subsequent becoming single and myself being divorced/single to connect privately. However, ...

I've turned my Facebook into the Ladies version, of a Men's Room. Yes, it's a Ladies Room, and drama free, to boot. Which I enjoy setting it up, like this, this time around. And pretty much, I'm only signed up on a Mommy's Board, NeuroTalk, and PsychCentral. And I realize, that you just aren't interested in discussing psychology, anymore. But I am there, that's what I enjoy, psychology, especially dream analysis, being around others with neurological conditions and other moms, when I am socializing on-line.

I have mentioned before, that if I were to move into a new relationship, it would only be fair for me, to remove myself from these private communications. I am at a point now, where I feel that is what I need/want to do.

I've appreciated the camaraderie that we've had throughout the years.

I wish you well,

F