Work for once went well and I did not get overwhelmed the way that I usually do. My coworker (who was off today) texted me to see if I wanted to get lunch, and I wanted to go but I had to pick up my mom from work and take her to my grandma's nursing home. I told my coworker I could meet up at 5:30pm, but she didn't want to. She has a chronic illness that causes her to get tired after a while, so I try to be understanding. I feel guilty for feeling annoyed, which only serves to feed the negative thoughts.

For once, I really want to go out and socialize. It's not often that I feel that way. My best friend from high school never has time to see me, and only contacts me to complain about her boyfriend. She hardly ever asks how I am doing. And she's busy: she's a college professor and owns her own business. No time to respond to texts or call I guess. I just feel insignificant and stupid, begging for attention. I pretend like I'm fine but I'm not. I'm just lonely. I don't have any other friends or anyone to talk to that isn't part of my family. I just want to meet up with a friend and have some coffee. Sorry for whining and for the long post. I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I think I may just go to the nearby coffee shop and read there so I can be around people. ((Hugs)) to everyone here.