Hi, winterglen. I can understand how comparing yourself with others can make you angry. I am trying to learn to be happy with who I am and what I can accomplish, even though I am limited now.

At least you sound like you know that most people have worked for their accomplishments and since you evidently haven't, then your lack of much success is understandable.

Can you try harder and look for some things you can succeed in? Are you giving life your best shot?

Also, are you seeing a therapist? I have found that to be very helpful.

Not all of us can be brilliant and very disciplined. In some ways I guess that's good. Most people are "average."