Ebony, sorry to hear about your situation. BELIEVE ME you are NOT alone!!!!
Send me a private message please. As I read your post.. I see we have a lot in common.
Not sure if you've seen the VA about your PTSD/Anxiety/Depression.. I highly recommend it. It has made a WORLD of difference in my life.

It may not save your marriage, as I am learning... but the VA counselors can surely save YOU.
Hope to hear from you soon.

Larry