i still cant get over they put chronic paranoid sz as my diagnoss. maybe its weird seeing it on paper for me. but its also the word "chronic" that makes my stomach turn. prob anxiety from seeing it on paper.

but i wont lie it seems right on. the diagnosis.

its just ...seeing it on paper makes it unbearable to look at.

and my year long question as to why the hoapital pdoc didnt give me a diagnosis during that stay - i think its answered.

they prob didnt cuz "chronic paranoid sz" - maybe they dont want the patients to freak out over it like i am a little...