Oh man echoes, are we ever in the same boat together!
((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
I hope I did that right, those are hugs up there.

I asked my t just the other day what orientation she is because i was getting confused (you read my other post). She told me "systemic" but that it's a very eclectic approach with psychdynamic/CBT, but like yours, I feel like we just don't go that far into the emotion behind the events in younger life.

So, I don't know, I'm with you, I can't decide where or what to do. I absolutely adore my t. I even told her this dilemma and she asked if I liked her, I said yes, she said something to the effect that she'd rather me have this problem with her, being someone I like (as to mirror more my real-life experiences) than go to a t and begin again, as she believes this is a trust issue. Also, she urged me to trust her and said she wants to get all my symptoms under control before we go with the hard stuff because it would undermine my ability to deal with the outcome. So, whatever, I see her point but it's like we think we're ready and they think otherwise. I may lose my nerve.

Maybe yours is trying to get some behavioral techniques down before dealing with the past. Bring it up again, see what happens and then mull it over and you'll do what's right.

As far as the insurance Bulls**t, they got us all by the cojones. My t puts down "relationship problems" as my code and even gave me the number. So I don't know what these docs do. My relationship is about the only thing going good for me.

I really want you to tell me how this works out for you, and I'll do the same.