Above any feeling I have, I find fear to be the most dominant feeling that rules my life. I have done so many stupid things in the past and my mother is telling me that people who live the kind of life I live do not succeed in life. I am scared that I will fail, scared that if I leave my boyfriend (whom my mother doesn't like and is threatening to disown me because of) that I might never find another man who loves me, scared that I might ruin my life while trying to fix it, scared that everytime I make a decision I might make the wrong one.
I am afraid of living my life the way I want to live it because I am not sure if I will do the right thing. I am afraid of being alone, and having no one. I am afraid of the thought of people that I love pretending to like me. And I am afraid that I might never reach my goals, because of the behaviour that is stimulated by Bipolar....