i have had a couple beers but not enough to catch a buzz and nor everyday.. probably only 2-3 times in past month or so; other than that i havent been drinking for the past month or so now... haven't really felt like it :/ probably because preoccupied with my mental health, i like my tinkerer it usually runs like clockwork... but i think a bolt fell into a gear some where...
i dont know about so much as a gift, because its not easy stuff to learn.. its like stuff that your brain wants to reject and not know and never remember, or atleast for me so i end up re-reasearching and reading... so its probably more of an obsession with wanting to know whats goin on in this crazy world? I just figure, the more you know.. the more you can, right?

i think calculus sucks pretty good, but it can be soo useful! there are lectures on youtube that are free too watch, if i was busy i would leave it running in the background just to hear them talk, exposure i guess? no one i know is into this stuff though haha

I've always been honest with them, i guess i just have too much to tell in 1 'sitdown'
I just miss being able to read and study like i use to, enjoying activities like games and drinking a few beers with other people..
i hope i can make some progress soon