I have to make five posts. This is my third one. I didn't go to a Christmas party last night so that I could get a good night sleep and get up and go to church this morning for a Christmas celebration. I slept pretty good, and I slept enough. However, I woke up with no energy and in pain. Now I don't feel like going to church. And I am upset that I passed up the party last night. I'm sick of being depressed. I have tried so many antidepressants, and none of them work. They all wake me up at night or have other intolerable side effects like paralyzed muscles in my face! I am so frustrated and want to get through my fifth post so that I can get some feedback.