For the most part I'd like to think that my mind is pretty steady. And there's a 99% chance that I would never do anything severe, but it terrifies me when I get the thought of...(ending it)... in my head and I can't find anything wrong with it. I have problems with staying silent and bottling my rage for long periods of time and when I do release my anger, I feel like I'm a different person who's capable of anything. In other words, it's best that everyone stays out of my way... for their sake and mine. I would never hurt my family, so if I ever got so angry at them I would probably turn on myself before them (it's a good thing we all get along so well though). When I say everyone should get out of my way, I'm talking about people other than my family. I hate having these thoughts and feeling this way... why can't my head be filled with nice, normal thoughts? What do others do to help calm their rage before it explodes? I could really use some advice.