Ohhhhh the drinking....EVERY time I drink I make a FOOL of myself. Every time I am about to drink I tell myself "DON'T act like a freak, DON'T do things you will regret." And I ALWAYS go crazy...doing things I wish I couldn't remember. One time I blacked out for 6 hours...I begged my friends to NEVER tell me what happened cuz as much as I want to know, I know I don't want to. I wake up with so many regrets....I drunk call, drunk text, I start talking about personal things so openly...and I have a really bad habit of walking out, literally. I just get up and walk out the door. sometimes CITIES away from home....I dwell on the things I do as well. I never can let them go, even if my friends say to forget it and move on.