Oh Samm,

Please don't do anything that you will regret. I do know how you feel. I wanted so bad to be able to join my Mom and Dad again. I didn't care whether I lived or died. In fact, I wanted to die.
Well, I almost got my wish. Right after, I came down with a very rare illness and was on life support and in a coma for three and a half weeks. The team of docs told my family to say goodbye.
Samm, I pulled through. I do remember very vividly of almost going to the other side. I was almost there but for some reason, I was sent back.
You are left here for a reason. Sometimes it's hard to find that reason but know that it's there. I have not spoke of this very many times, in fact, I don't know if I have ever spoke of this but something in me told me to tell you about my experience.
I wish I could give you a hug and tell you that everything will be OK but I do know that it is going to take a long time to feel better.
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
I care,
Hugs,
Boopers