I've wasted the past few years as well dropping out of college that was a waste of time to begin with, waiting on SSI going through the appeal process and going to therapy.....and at best what I've gotten out of it is a 50/50 chance I'll win my SSI appeal and ER bill I can't pay.

As for therapy I don't think I have really gotten much out of it, my mental state certainly has not improved and I've had some bad luck with medications hence why I am not willing to try the anti-depressant my psychiatrist prescribed I don't want to **** with another SSI I'm sticking with the valium for anxiety right now since that doesn't do anything weird and I only have to take it if my anxiety starts getting out of control. But I hate the feeling of wasting my life...and getting on SSI isn't nessisarily going to fix that.