Hi guys. So I have to go back to my parents' house this Friday for three weeks... yeah. Three weeks of constantly being with my abusers. I've been slowly freaking out about this. I've been emailing my T about once a day for three days now and that makes me feel bad. I shouldn't be wasting her time like this.

Last night, I got so upset thinking about this and thinking about the new memories that have been surfacing and I ended up taking a little more meds than is prescribed to me. I just wanted to forget about it all/not think about anything for a while. So naturally, I ended up emailing my T while intoxicated. Yikes. She called me as soon as she opened the email because she wanted to make sure I'm okay. I don't think she is upset with me as much as upset for me.

So throughout this break, I'm supposed to stay in contact with her through email and scheduled sessions over the phone. How much contact is too much contact? I know that emailing her last night under those conditions was a stupid idea. But I asked her about how much contact is appropriate, and she said that she trusts my judgement and I should figure that out on my own. Ugh. Does that mean once every few days? Once a day? What? Why won't she just tell me?