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Originally Posted by I.Am.The.End.
Even though all of my scans have come back showing no tumors/cancer and all my tests are normal but one (my DHEA is raising back up again), the last time I saw the doctor she was like "I don't understand why you don't have cancer" so anytime I feel anything that may or may not be a lump I start panicking that I really do have cancer. I don't want to die before being able to experience love and a career and just life in general.
If my anxiety wasn't bad enough, why did the doctor pretty much tell me that I should have cancer?! I don't…or at least I didn't two weeks ago but I don't think they scanned my entire body so what if I have tumors in my arms or legs? Can you tell if you're sick before it's too late? And I refuse to lose my hair so what do I do for treatment…not to mention that I'll lose my insurance next summer.
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Oh god, can I ever relate. I felt this way since my early 20's and I am now 59. I had a scare when I was pregnant at 22 by a doctor who suspected melanoma. Scared the crap out of me and he was a quack. This started me on my journey of OCD. Every lump was cancer to me (still is). I can't tell u how many benign moles I had removed.
I feel for you. Please consider that some doctors are literally delinquent in bedside manner, not to mention that there are those that just prey on your fears and want your money by having you come back again and again. I swear that is what happened to me!