Well, as a few of you may know, this school year has really beaten me up. I mean, I think I've always been kind of depressed before, but this is the first year that I really considered myself severely depressed.
I had been struggling with many SI and suicidal thoughts, and have been regularly self harming. Well today, I completely lost it. It was different. I completely lost myself and hurt myself 10 times the amount I normally do, and that isn't an exaggeration.
Now, along with just having one kind of SI, I'm now engaging in two, and on the edge of three different forms of it.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I feel so numb all the time, yet I cry way too much for someone like me.