I was going amazing the last few weeks, today though I notice I am a little off. It fits in to the right time of the month, I am so glad this month I am noticing straight away. Time to put up the antipsychotics and make sure I dont turn into a lazy slob on the couch.

Had too much sleep last night, found it harder to get out of bed, felt overwhelmed by the dishes and all I had to do today, when yesterday it was no problem. I also got triggered into a mad state yesterday but that resolved itself pretty quickly, now I realise why I reacted a bit more severely than I normally would.

Going better with the meditation now too, having full 4 minute or so periods with no thoughts in my mind, every day is just getting that little bit better. And after I feel able to better cope with minor stressors. I just did ALL the dishes and cleaned the kitchen without a care in the world . Next to tackle the rest of the day with a similar attitude.

Having some difficulty getting out of old habits, sitting online craving weed, I didnt have this problem at all on holidays so I guess it is the environment and habits trying to drag me down.

Hope you all have a lovely day/night.