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Old Dec 15, 2013, 11:44 PM
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It use to be just one voice very clear. Now it's like I have tons of them but it's almost like they are speaking a different language and I can't understand what they are saying. Like they are speaking but very far away and it's all jumbled. I don't know what to do. Sometimes I feel like what if I'm doing this for attention. What if I tried really hard to believe they weren't there then they just wouldn't be. Wouldn't I know if I were making this up. They are very distracting. I can focus on something else during the day usually, like tv or if someone is talking to me. But at night it is especially hard and I am tired and get easily irritated. I wish I could describe this better. It just makes me want to cry right now because it feels so hopeless. Like it is never going to go away. Has anyone else had this. Every now and then it will be quiet for a little bit randomly. And then they are back at it. I can kind of hear it from my ear but mostly I hear it as if it were going on inside my head. Like a dinner party. And then today they were arguing. At least that's what I assume by their tone. It feels kind of like they are a bunch of miniature creatures living in the front right side of my brain. And then it spread to my left side and they were arguing back and forth across the gap. Does any of this make sense? I know I'm kind of rambling I just don't know how else to explain.
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