I was dragged out with friends to watch the Bengals game tonight and I was miserable. I couldn't stand being there, they tried to make me comfortable but I was not. It was not till the end of the evening that I felt accepted. One of my best friends was leaving and we shook hands like normal, then he grabbed me and gave me a big hug and said I love you man. Maybe, it reaffirmed my faith, I just need to find it.