Really wish I could see my psychiatrist sooner than 1/16. I desperately want to try a different antidepressant for this horrible depression, which has been going on for a little more than 4 months now. My CBT doesn't seem to be helping, but I do it weekly with my T anyway. Try to challenge my negative thoughts but it's just so damn hard lately. Feel like I'm in a major slump and just can't get out of it. It hurts a lot.

I really want a job and am trying hard to find one, but I wonder if I'd even be able to handle a job with the way I've been feeling. I MUST make an attempt if offered a job. My husband swears this time next year we'll be in a different financial position (meaning I'll have a job). I hope it comes sooner rather than later.