I do my best to stop checking his page on facebook from my fake account, but every day I fail.. If I could write to him, I would have said that I miss him.
That no matter how much I pretend to be happy and I smile, my life is pointless without you. That every day since you left is a nightmare. I force myself to eat, I force myself to wake up, I force myself to go to work. You were the only person who truly knew me and with losing you I lost myself too, I love you so much, how is it possible that you feel nothing for us anymore? I miss you, I miss your laugh and your jokes, I miss the way you look at me when I am sad, I miss sitting on our sofa together watching, I miss dreaming about our future together, remember how you said that our kids will have british/iranian/scotish/russian/moldovan blood? it was funny. I can't stop thinking about you and I am not sure I ever will, I wish I wasn't so fooled by love and I wish there was a way to stop this pain but I can't find one yet, I wish you didn't become so cold and ignorant, absolutely different person. Was it all lies? why did you do this? If I could only let myself and write to you again, but all you do is read with no reply, every every single time, How can you?
P.S i'm still loving you
(where is an end to this? )