YESSSS

I get horrible anxiety like this and those bastard therapists and pdocs say I'm manic when I'm not even a little bit. It's so intense, my mind goes all over the place trying to make sense of it and I say all sorts of things to those who listen.

2 years ago in an act of desperation I wrote 30 pages attempting to explain what I'm going through and that b***h sent me to the hospital where I was evaluated and forced to volunteer for inpatient.

Now, even I believe their lies from time to time.

At least my current pdoc listens and doesn't assume I'm bipolar, unlike that c*** that wouldn't even speak to me unless I was medicated to oblivion.

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I feel much better now. My anxiety among many other things does not present like it would in normal people, unfortunately for me. I must have a super amygdala

No, I can't say anything in particular is stressing me out right now. Although I've been obsessing over how I turned down an investment that could have easily made 6 figure profit. Other than that, now that I exercise, I feel antsy on days that I don't work out, sort of how some people get without a shower.

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Even being on this website turns me into a nervous wreck. I better log off for awhile. Bye
sorry for the swearing