I'm with Angel and others who say no more drinking. I drank once in the last 18 months, 5 months ago because it was a special occation. I was able to cut myself off, behave, and not black out. but still I would rather just forgo it all together and not risk it because it can be a slippery slope for me.
I'm extremely unprodictible when drinking. I might be fine one time, and then cause complete chaos for myself or others the next time. Some of the behaviors I have engaged in under the influence of alcohol that I would not like to repeat include but are sadly not limited to:
Drunk texts/calls that I have no recollection of later, verbally abusive behavior that included but sadly again was not limited to encouraging a friend to commit suicide because I was hurt by something my friend said to me, promiscuous behavior, ending up in the psych ward with no recollection of how I got there, waking up in the drunk tank, I'd be here all day if I tried to list all the stupid **** I did.
All in all, not worth it. At least not for me personally.
Not to mention my ex-husband was so wasted in early 2010 that he did irreversible damage to his hand. He required a 7 day hospital stay, 3 months of physical therapy, and his hand will still never be the same. The pinky finger is basicly completely paralyzed.