I am working with my t to stop picking my skin. I gave myself a massive infection a few months ago that took about a month to heal.

I have made some harm-reduction changes (washing my hands, etc.)

I am struggling to come up with a name for this feeling I have when I am picking. I feel cloudy in my head, like I can't focus my eyes, but its more than just my eyes it my whole perception. It doesn't feel good. In fact it feels destructive and terrible, but I WANT to feel it. I guess like scratching an itch more and more and more. I feel nauseous.

idk...its not happy, sad, or anxious so I'm at a loss.