I don't know why I just thought about this right now but thought I'd share! I don't remember exactly when it was other than it was more than a year ago, because T was still here in the same town as me and it took place in her office here. We'd been talking about the "thinking me" and the "emotional me" for a couple weeks prior and I got creative and wrote up this little skit where they were talking to each other, and somehow forced myself to perform it for her, including sliding my glasses down to end of my nose when I was playing the "thinking me" part, and using different voices for each part. OMG she laughed so hard I thought she was gonna fall out her chair. I must admit myself that it WAS pretty funny. One of my most favorite memories of my therapy!

Now I want to find it, I think I saved it on my computer. Ah here it is. It was back in March of 2012, the same day I uttered that difficult "I love you" for the first time!

Preface to the skit: "How can I not love you, but it also feels weird. Because my thinking self knows of course that this is a professional, client-therapist relationship with inherent boundaries and all that good stuff. Now of course being the writer that I am, I had to create what I imagine this conversation would be between those two parts of myself we've been discussing":

Thinking Self (a bit self-righteously): “Get over yourself. You’re not supposed to feel that way.”

Feeling Self (experiencing a strength it hasn’t been allowed to feel before): “HA! You just TRY to stop me!”

T.S.: “I don’t have to TRY anything. I’ll just shut you down.”

F.S.: “Oh come on. What do you think I am, an idiot??! I understand your part in all of this. I’m just letting you know that I’m not going anywhere, I is here to stay and you better get used to it.”

T.S. (shakes head, rolls eyes dramatically and waves a white flag)
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This was also the first time I ever remember saying "God, I’m startin’ to love bein’ me!!"