I start back at work tomorrow after 4 months off, doing school full-time. I would be alright with that if it weren't for the fact that I'm in the middle of major low spell. I sleep all day, as much as my daughter lets me. At night, I am just as exhausted as during the day, but my brain won't turn off. I'm anxious, depressed, and frustrated. I'm terrified that I won't be able to get up in time! I missed my first appointment with a pdoc in 7 months today because I couldn't wake up and go. I don't know what to do. I can't afford to not work during the breaks from school. My GI Bill only pays the rent while I'm enrolled in classes. I want to continue the job part-time during the spring semester as well, because I need the money. I don't know what to do. :[
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“Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I'm not going to make it, but you laugh inside — remembering all the times you've felt that way.”
-Charles Bukowski
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