that was on the 14th. On 14th night I finally gave in and asked him whats going on. He said he feels resentment about the fact that for once he made a well informed decision about parting ways and I guilted him to change his decision. And that's the reason the last 15 days he has consciously or subconsciously been a jerk. And that IT IS OVER NOW.

I leave this country on the 9th of jan and I have not begged him back or even mentioned it.
He has been preparing for this for 4 years and has moved on pretty fine. I feel winded cuz this is all a new feeling and though I'm putting on a brave front I'm not able to digest the unfairness of the situation. Theoretically, I know what to do but practically it's a Herculean effort to apply it. We both still love each other. And care for each other. But he thinks its time to move on and that I shudnt blame everything in depression and that he made the decision not influenced by depression and THIS was the real him and people change!!
He says he has lost the fight in him when in reality he has done nothing for the marriage has never been a good husband. I fought alllll the way.
Maybe him stifling himself over my cheating episode and not properly tackling the issue was his way of fighting for it. When there's a problem he clams up and doesn't communicate.

my situation has changed.

What do I do now??

(I know I shud maintain my dignity and give him space and let it be cuz I was never happy anyway. I also know the whole 180 approach. But knowing is different from applying. )