People are the most challenging thing. I love people and I want to be with people. But the Avoidant in me does not like people and does not want to be around them.

Though the root of this is Fear and Rejection. The Avoidant does not want to be around people because he does not want to risk rejection and fears getting hurt.

Fear is not of God. Of course that is easy to say. Its easy to say to just get over it and deal.

Its a lot easier said than done. Its has taken years to get healing. I am still not there. Though I wonder where "There" is.

Some days I win and some days the Avoidant wins. My hope and prayer is that I will have more days when I win than the Avoidant.