I think the line between hypomania and mania is different for everyone, and we are not always the best interpreters of that line. For instance, what I consider to be hypomania, my pdoc flat-out calls mania (hence my own BP 1 diagnosis) and treats me for it accordingly. I suppose he knows more about it than I do, because he's seen me in both states, and listened to me on the phone yapping loudly about shopping and hallucinations.

I do have a sense of when I cross over into manic territory, and that's when I suddenly become angry and paranoid and argumentative. I accuse people of "trying to spoil my fun" and am afraid they're going to call my pdoc to put me in the hospital, or I run up and down our long, sloping driveway, or I take off in the car and drive too fast with the radio blasting. And the restlessness......it's like I can't find a place for myself.

Whatever you do, OP, don't be afraid to tell your pdoc and/or T what's going on with you. They are there to help you, and they can't do their job properly if they don't have all of the information. I used to be that way too, not because mine intimidates me in any way, but because I didn't want him to know the worst about me and then think less of me. Well, that has proven to be a straw-man argument, because it's NOT his job to judge me and he doesn't. Yours won't either, if s/he is doing the job right.