im really starting to wonder..like maybe not seeing psychiatrists or therapists again. just like n e body in that field. but this sucks bad. because i HAVE to see a doc while on disability. AND i dont want to be so bad again that i might goto jail. i mean this really...really sucks. bad.

i dont even know how to explain how much disappointment i have right now. and anger. and sadness.

everyone on here and just like IRL and just everywhere - they say "be honest. be honest with what your going thru". BUT SEE WHERE ITS GOTTEN ME?! do you see it?!
being honest gets you drugged.he even said i should maybe get an injection of 100mg every 2-3 weeks instead of 1x a month. if anybody can understand - i would sleeping and drugged out of my mind IIF I DID THAT. i had to quickly interject when he said that.

i just dont like this anymore. idc if i burn bridges with them. i hate this and them. this is killing me inside