I understand how you feel Pilatus. My abuser was my mother and father and st epfather and grandfather and my friends grandfather who i before he did that considered him a grandfather. Its horrible, you lose a sense of family because your so busy trying to survive the ones who helped bring you into this world. Its really ridicious. What i hate most about having them as my abusers is it says in the commandments honor thy father and mother. Well how can i do that? How can i be a good person in the eyes of God and say Yes ive forgive them, I dont and i dont want to have to keep in contact with them just because they are my parents. Good luck, my thoughts are with you keep being strong and know you have friends here you can trust. PM me anytime