So sometime in late 2012 I was diagnosed as having ADD and depression. My doctor put me and Adderall and Zoloft. So guess what happened I was a hot mess! I was having manic episodes, showing all symptoms of BP. I was doing things out of my normal character. Excessive drinking, sexual misconduct, I even became a stripper for a short while. Yes, I was a mess. then last month I started to really get depressed and started having suicidal thoughts. I was hospitalized taken off those meds diagnosed as being bipolar and not add. and here I am now I am just on lithium 150 mg 2x in am and 2x in pm.

In essence my behavior for the past year has been unacceptable. Is it because of the meds I was on? Can I blame it on me? Do I blame my actions on my mental illness? Or am I to blame? I feel immense shame for all of my actions. this shame really puts me on the edge to hurt my self when I think about it.

Through my research online and talking with my doctors I have come to realize that the two meds that I was put on were wrong for a person that has bipolar disorder. So my actions could have been induced by the medication that I was put on.

Has anyone here experienced a similar situation.