Freewill, how would you being unlovable serve God's purposes? You must have faced a lot of adversity in your life, and I am sorry for that. It must really hurt to be excluded from your son's and your future grandchildren's lives. I am sorry that your dog is having health problems too. That concerns me, as it could be enough to push someone over the edge. May God be with you and carry you through this section of your life.

Eating disorders are hard to recover from, and they do take their toll on those who love you too. It can take powerful incentive to do the work that you have to do to get well. My wish for you is that you will recover and that you will have the opportunity to be a grandmother, and to be a positive influence in your grandchildren's lives. Kids really need grandparents. Look forward to that.

Rap