Hi everyone!
I don't know if anyone else feels this way, but...
For some reason every year on, and around, my birthday I get very anxious. I really have no idea why, and it seems so silly. Well, tomorrow is my birthday and i have stared to freak out. Every year I feel anxious as it gets closer to my b-day, the past few years I have been so anxious that I have trouble eating my birthday dinner. Tonight I am very anxious. Maybe it's because tomorrow is a big birthday, the big 25. Half-way to fifty!
I had plans for myself and those plans have not quite worked out. I had always thought that by 25 I would be more settled and set. Here I am 25, still in college, working as a nanny (but I really love my job) and I was just diagnosed as anorexic and having an anxiety disorder. I am working hard to catch up in school and looking for real jobs, and so far i'm doing ok, but sometimes it can be hard. I will also lose my good insurance that i had though my dad at midnight tonight. This also means losing my therapist for at least a while as I can't find insurance I can afford that covers mental health specialists.
Well, that's my story, or at least parts of it. Sorry for rambling. I guess I just have to try to focus on the PRESENTS! Thanks for listening.
Kate