I feel like I am living a dream but it's not a dream. I have been working my tush off the last almost 2 months in therapy and especially the last month since DBT group started.

Umm...it felt uncomfortable in session Monday night because T was really bragging to me about all the work I am doing and some of the changes, for the better, she has noticed. I mean don't get me wrong it was a good uncomfortable but uncomfortable nonetheless.

I guess I just don't feel like the work I have done is that big of a deal. I mean in the grand scheme of the work I still have and want to do...it just seems so minute. I mean yes it's important, very important, groundwork, and I obviously take it very seriously as I spend lots of, (1 & 1/2+ hours a day, 6 days a week), time doing all this work. So obviously I see it's importance I just don't get all the "bragging"?

I also know I love to minimize my success. So maybe that's part of it. I guess I don't want to celebrate just yet as when I get complacent I stop working and I have a lot more work to do yet.

I guess the dream part would be...I do feel lots better than even when I first saw her, T, that is and definitely thinking more clearly which I guess considering where I came from 2 months ago, is HUGE. Just not necessarily celebration time, just yet anyway.

Just posting to see more clearly where I am at.

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