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Originally Posted by Favorite Jeans
How okay do you feel about the fetish? Maybe, if you haven't already, it would be worth exploring some of the kink-positive literature out there on fetishes. Maybe you can do so e of the work to overcome your shame on your own before you bring it up with her. It might feel good to know that you're in good company, that lots of people are intrigued by the same kinds of things.
And, wow, facing your rapist at Christmas. I can imagine that this isn't the easiest time. Maybe wait until after this trauma (and potentially a week or more away from T) before bringing up something that is so difficult to say.
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I generally feel okay about it since nobody knows about it and as I get older (almost 21 now) I do it less often. But I do believe that it's linked to something that happened in the past and is also linked with why I can not use public restrooms (including someone's private bathroom in their home), aka a rest room that's not my own.
Also my T's office is closed the week of christmas and T also had to have a procedure done this week so that's 2 weeks with no therapy after going for 2 times a week for the last 4 months (when the SA trauma memories surfaced).
