We can still have affectionate moments/days despite the fact that I can't be her literal daughter. It's just so hard for me to accept that even though I can't have this relationship be the full maternal figure I envision in my mind, it is still okay. I want the entire experience or I discount what I perceive to be a partial experience because that moment we had today was by no means a partial experience and I need to stop trying to reanalyze it, looking for her rejecting me.