I've been at baseline or close to it for a week now, which is amazing for me. I'm off meds, and normally off meds means I am either so manic I black it all out, so depressed I want to -you know what- or else in a mixed state, which for me usually means I feel worthless but have a lot of hyper anxious energy, which is very dangerous.

I'm definitely on guard, waiting for the shoe to drop… hope I remember it, hope I keep my head, hope I don't ruin my life this time… but I gotta know if I can do this, I want to know who I am, I don't wanna be dependent on the meds… and also I don't wanna commit any felonies… here's hoping...