I, too am sick & tired of purging, of bingeing & purging, of starving and of the whole horrible cycle. I've had it. My body can't take it anymore, after ~15 yrs. I've abused my body so badly. Over the past 16 yrs, my weight has gone up & down too many times to count. I think I've probably both lost & put on a grand total of approx 400 lbs over the years. It's sick. So incredibly bad for my body.

Please tell me, does anyone else have probs w/ telling when they are truly full? I'm sure my metabolism is completely screwed up (although my thyroid - heaven only knows how - is working normally). I have a TON of food cravings: mostly for carbs like breads & sweets (cake, cookies, etc.). It's just horrible. In the past two short mos, I know I've put on ~ 25-30 lbs alone...IN ONLY TWO MOS. :*(

I can't do this anymore.......I'm too weak. But I'm so fat (believe me when I say this - I know I am overweight for my height now after the drastic wt gain), yet my body STIILL craves heavy carbs. Seems like I'm hungry every cpl hrs, and I'm eating "well" - definitely adequate meals for what my income can allow. I'm in no ways deliberately starving myself, b/c I give up.

I'm just so tired. Tired of it all.