Omg !! U guys!!!!u r the best!!!

So much support I've found here in this forum. And such wisdom!
Thanks a lot I wish I cud do something for each one of u in return for taking time to advice a stranger.

French, I don't think he's playing mind games with me. Never did even in the past. He probably is a little apprehensive of how he will cope but he is very sure. In fact, for the first time he's being a man. Just a little too late.

If I take emotions and love out o pic. There is only negative stuff. But another things that is there is HISTORY. Lil jokes that only we know, private jokes. Shows we watch together. Words we say to each other. I know every relationship has that. But I'm notorious for clinging to the past!!
I'm very strong but also v. Sentimental.

I see horrible people in marriages each cheating on the other but maintaining harmony n peace at home and I get jealous. How can THEY do it and I can't.. We can't. We both, after all, are nice people.

I have decided ill concentrate on myself for now and will leave to my country broken up even if he begs me back. (He's not gonna)

I know once I go back ill be fine. My life is THERE.

Dan, thanks for the reply. I read it coupla times. I think I'm in this cuz I have invested so much in it and was hoping he'd get help. Fact is ... HE WILL NEVER.
I love him that's prolly y I am hanging on. I'm someone who's never given up.

But I think we all know I'm being a darn fool.

I will get my act together I promise.

Healingme4ne .... Thanks. Much needed hug.